Currently I'm prepping a post to share some of my recent YouTube lolita content (would love it if you subscribed wink wink) and when I checked my blog to see what I'd said about the tumultuous life events of 2025 I realised that at least here on the blog I'd said basically nothing. And in fact, two posts ago I mentioned my husband and then in the next one I mention my girlfriend which might seem a lil confuing lol. I know I don't owe anyone an explanation of what's going on in my life IRL but I want to at least give an abridged version.
At the end of 2024, with my husband James's full support and encouragement (I cannot emphasize how lovely he was about this!) I got myself onto a dating app. See, I realised I was bisexual once we were already married and while I was like "oh well, doesn't matter, don't need to explore that" his attitude was "well, maybe you should and I'm 100% fine with that". Several years later we were living in Tasmania and I finally felt like yeah, maybe I should.
In April, I matched with my now-girlfriend Maisie and we had our first date in June. I think you can guess how well that went ^__^
Then, completely unrelated, in July James and I decided to separate (we're currently still pending divorce due to compulsory waiting periods). We're still great friends, house-sharing until later this year, and overall it was as amicable as a breakup can be - there was no great drama, just a realization that it wasn't working any more and in hindsight hadn't been for a while.
So that was...a lot. Good things, bad things, all the things. While life has settled down for me now, I'm sure you can imagine how weird it was for a while. I love Maisie so much and I wouldn't change a thing if it meant not meeting her but it was a really strange time for me to transition a marriage into a friendship, and be mourning that whilst at the same time embarking on something new and wonderful.
In less impactful news, a huge project started dominating my time at my day job and I was also flown back to the mainland office twice in the end of 2025...and once already this year with some more on the books in the near future.
I was also in a play, so that was another big thing in the latter half of the year. And weirdly, in the face of everything else 2025 held it's a thing I keep forgetting even happened!
And to top it off...in January this year my Facebook and Instagram were deactivated for reasons presumably related on me referring to lolita fashion as lolita fashion because, well, I don't post the kind of material that was supposedly why my account was deactivated. Ugh.
All in all, I've been busy. Many of my hobbies - including lolita - have taken a back seat while I've been getting myself sorted out.
I won't go into it, but for a while it felt like every week I was getting my mind blown by some realisation about myself, my values, my goals, my desires, my weaknesses, my strengths, just...me. It's still happening, just a little less frequent. I was already seeing a great counsellor which has helped a lot with clarifying all the chaos of my mind over the past year.
I feel like now I am really getting in touch with myself. I've been taking all the change and upheaval as an opportunity to actually stop and ask myself what I want to do, who I want to be, how I want my life to look. I'm grateful to have such a strong support network - including James and Maisie! - while I do this.
In terms of this blog, which has always been almost exclusively lolita-focused, I may actually come back to blogging a bit more in future. No promises, but I've missed writing - all kinds of writing, including this blog. I should be getting the last of my lolita wardrobe out of storage within the next few months, which will open up so many avenues for enjoying this hobby that I haven't had for years. I could do flatlays again!
So that's my life over the past year in a nutshell. It hasn't been easy but I've come out the other side feeling more me than I have in a long time. I'm not entirely sure what that'll mean for me as a (shudder) content creator but hey, the fun is in the journey ^__^
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